Lightbulb – Liminal Space

🎶 after you read - "Grow" by FACESOUL

I feel like I’m two different people dwelling in the same body at the same time. Everywhere I turn there are two choices to make, two paths to take. I asked for this. I asked God to change my life, so I was given sacrifices – habits, thoughts, people, and things to let go of in order to step into the new. And even though I know which choice to make, there are times I still choose the wrong one. My old self, my ego, and all that comfort has a pull on me. I never realized how hard it is to change old patterns. I usually do it slow and steady, but I guess my prayer was heard so loudly that the need to change came with urgency. I envision a train on its way to higher frequency that keeps rolling past us, and it’s our choice to hop on or get left behind. Sometimes, I’m scared that this pull to remain my old self will get me left behind. But I’m determined to let go and hop on that train.

Yet with all that determination, I’m still in the liminal space. Let’s talk about it.

The liminal space is that time in your life when you’re not your old self, but you’re not quite your new self either. You can feel confused, lost, stuck, and uneasy, but then you’ll have moments when you feel inspired, creative, full of light and love, and you find all the answers. Going back and forth between the two feelings can be exhausting. That’s where I am in life. I’ve been here many times, and I expect I’ll be here again since evolving is essential to me. I’m sure you’ve gone through it too, and I’m writing this so we can go through it together. I share my experience so you know you’re not alone.

When I first started this current journey (or evolution cycle), I dove straight into learning everything I could to help me grow. I read/listened to books, meditated, watched tarot readings and too many reels, listened podcasts, and the list goes on. Although, I continue to do those things, what I learned is that it’s all a distraction. I’ve stuffed my brain with so much information that I’ve become exhausted and even more confused. With so much on my mind and an even longer to-do list of all the things I need to heal and habits I need to change, I become imbalanced. I was trying so hard to confirm what I already knew through my intuition and in doing so I was saying, “I don’t trust my own wisdom”. I was distracting myself from doing the real work – going within.

So, as I continue to learn (because there’s nothing wrong with that) I also practice the art of being present. It’s the only way to calm down my “monkey brain” from all the learning, and it’s helped me with trusting and following my intuition.

I started doing this movement when I need to slow down, and it’s become a habit that surprises me when I do it automatically. I do a quick deep breath, inhaling while raising my hands (open palms face up) and then exhaling while bringing my hands down (open palms face down). Then, I feel my body physically. I feel the spirit within me and remind myself I am here now. I look around and use my senses to fully get into the present moment. Then, I continue my task at hand.

I’m not a pro at being present just yet. I know I will get there as I continue to create it as a habit. The key is to feel yourself from within. Open your heart center and ground yourself. Become an observer of your thoughts and allow them to pass. Trust yourself. Trust that gut feeling. Do not go seeking outside yourself. Relax into your spirit and then the answers will come pouring out from the inside.

If you’re also going through your own liminal space, I invite you to practice the art of being present. Before you know it, you’ll be on the other side. A new person living the life you prayed for.

I’d love to hear your liminal space experiences, so please have the courage to share.

Peace to all.
Love to all.
Light to all.
Awareness to all.